Stay in Bed

Tired, so tired

The days drag on

Headaches pound behind my eyes

No matter how much I try

It’s hard just to get by

The to do list keeps growing

And while I organise to the extreme

I confess I just want to let loose and scream

It’s hard to keep going

The image I strive to maintain

Of putting my sons needs first

Is straining and starting to burst

My body can’t go on

Doing it all for everybody else;

I am strung out and stretched too far

If only I knew

How to lower the bar

It’s never ending, this role

It just doesn’t stop

My body begs to shut down and rest

But when it’s night and down I lie?

My body decides it was silly to try

And wakes me up instead.

I am constantly stressed inside

Loud noises and the tv screen

Start to vibrate round my skull

It hurts, I groan

My brain is tired and sore, I moan

But Luke still asks me maths questions

Non stop that he wants to have shown

It’s like a circus

Or a merry go round

Only the pounding thrill of anticipation

Becomes a constant drum of dread

That fight or flight mode

Never knows when to let go

I’m over it, I say

I want to get off

I’m tired of this running and activity all day

I just want to rest –

Not this endless rote of play

But life keeps going on

And while I moan and I groan

I must get up

Though things still swirl through my head

Unfortunately, I can not stay in bed.